I grew up in NY, moved to Orlando, FL for a few months and then moved to Williamsburg, VA and have been here for about a year and a half.
I like change. I always have, and probably always will. Moving from state to state wasn’t exactly easy, but it was definitely adventurous and kept us on our toes. Now after having Briella, I have been battling with how I want (actually, more like need) to plan our future. It is extremely difficult to have a baby and live eight hours away from family, and for a while my fiancé and I were making it work – we were even considering buying a house down here!
Well, we just got back from VA after visiting NY for over a month, and needless to say – we are packing up and moving back north in ONE SHORT WEEK. Again, not because we don’t like Williamsburg, in fact – we love it. We’re heartbroken that we are going back to NY. But, the reality is – Glenn and I aren’t going to be lucky enough to work from home forever, and I DO NOT WANT TO PUT MY PRECIOUS BABY IN DAYCARE. Obviously, there is nothing wrong with babies who go to daycare – I worked at PLENTY of daycares over the years and know that there are some great childcare facilities out there. I just personally do not feel comfortable leaving my baby with anyone I haven’t known for years, mainly because of the horror stories we all see on the news – oh! and the fact that it can cost up to $1,250 a month!
Anyways – while we were visiting NY, my fiancé and I really got to thinking about where we see ourselves living. Where do we want Briella to go to school? Is it selfish to live eight hours away from our family? You get the picture.
After seeing the baby with our family and seeing how much she loves to socialize, I said to my fiancé, “Now that she really knows her family, we can’t very well take her back to our house in VA and keep her cooped up with just the two of us, she’ll go crazy!”
But – when we got back to VA, I opened our front door, put Briella on our living room floor and she went NUTS! She was crawling around like a mad woman, yelling out of pure excitement, knocking over all of her toys – she was THRILLED to be home.
This is where the hard part comes in. How will we ever know if we are doing the right thing for her by moving back?! Was Briella just excited to be in our house because she was familiar with it? Or does she just flat out like VA better than NY?! It’s not like she can talk, so I really have no idea.
Overthinking can make a person go crazy (I think I am more than ½ way there!)
If you’re a mom then you know how much you worry about your child(ren). Every little decision you make will ultimately affect them in one way or the other, and it is so important to keep their best interests at heart. Here’s to hoping I am making the right choice!